Crohns disaster!

Oh no! What an absolute disaster, after 10 years of some sort of remission, I am having a full on Crohns disease flare-up, stomach pains, fatigue, nausea, bleeding… If you know you know.

I was going to start this months blog by discussing how well I’ve felt over the last 18 month, what does that mean to me in Crohns disease terms? Well, zero visits to my consultant, zero conversations with my IBD Nurse, less fatigue and no brain fog! Like actually zero brain fog! And finally, Zero trawling through Facebook forums, looking for answers I know I won’t find.

However, if I’m being honest, although I felt the best I’ve felt in years, I had noticed my Calprotectin levels creeping up, “How did you know your Calprotectin

Levels were creeping up if you haven’t seen your consultant for over 18 months”, I hear you shout. The answer is simple; I use a home Calprotectin kit called IBDoc. I’ve written extensively about IBDoc and the life changing impact it’s had on the management of my disease in previous blogs. 

This does prompt to the question I think all of us IBDers ask ourselves, “why do I feel so well, if I have no symptoms” Of course, I have no idea why this is the case, I’ve had Calprotectin levels around 70 and felt absolutely awful day-to-day week to week, yet here I am, feeling fine, but with much increased inflammation levels. There’s loads of research around mindfulness, and meditation directed specifically at the gut to reduce symptoms I’ve also been reading lots of papers on CD disease and PTSD, but that’s for another blog.

Back to the flare-up, there are mitigating circumstances around this flare up, first up, and it’s always lurking in my blogs, its my inability to stay on my low residue low fiber diet, I’ve gone from strict compliance to around 70% compliance, which clearly isn’t good enough. Secondly, I believe the immune suppressants I’m on (Vedo) is no longer as affective as it was, these two factors combined resulted in a Calprotectin result of 900, increased urgency, pain in my tummy, that was followed by a temperature of around 39° for a day.

I knew it was time to take action, so now I’m back on the trail of the Lonesome Crohns disease person, ringing my consultant secretary desperate for an appointment, chasing IBD nurses for answers, chasing prescriptions from my GP. I’d honestly forgot how exhausting it was being your own PA when you have a chronic illness

The positives, if there are ever any positives around a flare-up, is that I’m able to test my Calprotectin levels via IBDoc this is a perfect example of how this technology works fantastically well for me. My last call protecting result was 925, after two weeks of being strictly on diet and the introduction of Entocort, my levels are down to 500, I’ll give it another couple of weeks and see where my 

Calprotectin levels are again.

You’d think I would have learnt my lesson by now, having CD for over 30 years, two resections and countless amounts of medications, The thing is, I think I’m smarter than my disease, I think I can out run it with diet and drugs, even after 10 years of relative remission, it’s caught up with me, it was always going to catch up on me at some point. I need now to pay it some respect and attention, I have to whether this flare up and get my inflammation under control with new medication, and little patients. 

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IBD = Guilt

On a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the worst, how guilty does having this dreadful disease make you feel? Over the years I think I’ve definitely been a solid eight when it comes to feeling guilty about how IBD has affected me and my family. Along with the ensemble of symptoms, weight loss, diarrhoea, nausea, crippling stomach pain, fatigue, mouth ulcers, anaemia, joint pain, inflammation of the eyes, and then there’s the side effects of the heavy medication, joint pain, respiratory problems, numbness, tingling, liver problems, the list sometimes feel endless.  

 

So, you would think with all the hideous symptoms of IBD, and the punishing side effects of the medication, then throw in the countless hours spent being prodded and poked, the regular ? repeated MRI’s colonoscopies…. Let’s face it, the list is endless, then why on earth would I then feel guilty about having this disease? 

 

I mean, it’s not like I asked for the disease when they were handing out who got the chronic illness genes and who didn’t. I didn’t sign up for a life time of hospital appointments or the overwhelming feelings of anxiety waiting for my latest test results, but the guilt will not leave me in peace. 

 

The Oxford English dictionary defines guilt as, ‘a feeling of worry or unhappiness that you have because you have done something wrong’. 

 

Crohns disease isn’t the result of something I did wrong, nor is it something I should be ashamed of, but the feelings of guilt still linger. 

 

The things I feel most guilty about…. first up is undoubtably food. I’ve been on the LOFFLEX diet since 2014, the diet keeps me in remission, so you would think that I’d have the will power to stay on diet and not cheat. I’m 90% compliant, but as we know when using diet to treat CD you need to be 100% compliant, so the guiltometer is steadily moving upwards. The guilt about not having the will power is compounded when I come across the smiling happy people that seem to thrive with such restrictive diets as the SCD, or plant based diets, their, “it’s easy, everyone should do this” Instagram posts make my guiltometer practically ping. 

 

The guilt continues to flex with the way it affects everyone around me, particularly my wife and children. The fact that I sometimes can’t provide for my family, the financial inconsistencies of not working, the extra work my wife has to pick up, the fact that travelling is a huge challenge for me, constantly cancelling friends parties, feeling too unwell to watch my son play football or watch my daughter perform on stage in her latest role. I feel guilty about the close friendships I once had that no longer exist.  

 

Having IBD is a life-altering disease with no cure and without doubt you are going to feel many emotions. It’s important that you can discuss these feelings with your friends and family. It’s also important that if you have the ability to speak to a professional you will gain the tools to cope with the ups and downs it brings us. 

 

 

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Has the COVID pandemic had a negative impact on the quality of care you receive from your IBD team?

Would seizing the moment and utilising the powerful technology at our disposal to create better outcomes for IBD patients?

I’ve had CD for 29 years, and I can honestly say, apart from a few exceptions which I will come on to, the way we use technology hasn’t really change in all those years. 

The COVID lockdown has been particularly hard for us IBD patients; increased anxiety due to consultant appointments being cancelled, medical procedures like colonoscopies being postponed, the time we have with our consultants being limited due to the huge back log of cases, and let’s face it, the face-to-face time we had with our consultant pre COVID wasn’t exactly ideal was it? In fact, the national average for time spent with an NHS consultant is 10 minutes. 10 minutes! no wonder I was always severely anxious pre meeting with my consultant.

 On reflection, I was, and am completely over the top when it comes to appointments with my consultant. As an example, I’d have my agenda typed out three weeks in advance of the consultation, constantly adding to it, re-writing it, running through different imagined conversations.

COVID has had that effect on me. I guess it’s having too much time on my hands to reflect on my CD and the care I receive. It’s hard enough dealing with the symptoms of this disease on a daily basis but when you throw the care, or lack of, you receive into the mix you can see why anxiety plays a huge part in A: the disease and B: the care we receive from our HCP. 

So how could the future look?

I believe that new tech should be a core part of IBD management, I’m sure if we asked the IBD community they would reflect this opinion. Imagine new systems of IBD care that are built on new technology that would be more patient oriented and less bureaucratic A perfect example of that is the tech I have used for the last two years, IBDoc which is an App based home faecal calprotectin test kit. 

This technology has completely changed the way I monitor my CD, and that ripple effect has implications on the way I interact with my IBD team: less calls, less invasive diagnostics, less time spent waiting and agonising for appointments. I wonder if a study was carried out on this piece of tech alone what the value in cost and resource it may save the NHS.

Tech tools that enable real-time 2-way communication between patients and health care providers will allow for a faster responsive service and should help to limit unscheduled, emergency appointments or needless visits to A&E dept. Delivery of app-based solutions is surely the next step in the medical tech revolution. This new tech will help to build confidence in patients and free up capacity for our time poor HCP. 

I don’t believe the AI is quite there yet, so using chatbots for conversations around medical issues makes me feel uncomfortable. However, Chatbots are being developed for IBD HCP to collect disease activity, update medications, and obtain information on FC levels. We have real time data as citizens using Zoom, Teams, or Skype for our work meetings and this can easily be applied to health care. 

Let’s wait and see what the tech future holds for us, I strongly believe we have a bright future on an otherwise overcast IBD day.

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Still going to the toilet 10 times a day even after a bowel resection. You could have BAM!

This month’s blog is about my needless ten-year struggle dealing with chronic diarrhoea and how I tracked down a simple medication that stopped my relentless, unnecessary trips to the toilet. 

Before I begin, I need to put the follow in context, it was the late nighties, the Internet had just begun to permeate our lives and I had started to use it as a research tool as well as connecting with other IBD sufferers 

  

I’ve had 2 resections in my 29-year battle with Crohns disease, for this post I’ll focus on the second, a resection of the small bowel, removing the terminal ilium or in non-technical terms, the bit where your small bowel meets the large bowel. 

Although the operation was considered a success in terms of removing the diseased section of my bowel with no complications, I was now faced with a massive increase in toilet activities to over 10 a day with no formed stools. 

 

In my follow up appointments with many different consultants over the course of the next ten years, the answer was disappointing the same…” sorry there is nothing more we can do about your chronic Diarrhoea’ to add to this, I was also told not to take Imodium (loperamide hydrochlorideas) it could cause blockages due to the resection site. 

So, there I was, 2 bowel resections later, the toilet activates taking over my life with no hope for the future, as you all know this disease has the overwhelming effect of feeling complete hopeless. So, when I got a message from a fellow IBDer entitled “a possible answer to your chronic Diarrhoea’ 

I was intrigued to say the least. 

 

It was the first time I’d heard of the condition called, BAM (Bile acid malabsorption), which is extremely common when you have the terminal ileum removed as part of a resection. Based on my research and armed with a folder full of research, I made an appointment with a private consultant to discuss BAM and my toilet activates. 

 

If I’m being honest, I was upset after leaving the consultation, for a couple of reasons firstly, the consultant straight away suggested my increased toilet activity may be due to BAM, He was concerned that I’d never been recommend the medication for it. He suggested I have a SeHCAT scan, which is now the recommended diagnostic for BAM. He wrote up a prescription for a medication called colestyramine which is a powdered medication taken in the mornings. 

 

The second reason I was upset was that the consult told me I had been needlessly suffering with this condition for 10 years! Ten years! I know it's pointless looking back, certainly it's pointless looking back at your life with this disease, all the family gatherings, events, meeting up with friends cancelled due to feeling terrible or in my case not being able to leave the house due to BAM. 

 

Within a couple of day of taking one 4g sachet of colestyramine my toilet activities had reduced from 10 times a day to one a day!!! I couldn’t believe it and 10 years later I’m still on the medication, with zero side effects. I can leave the house freely without knowing where every toilet along the route will be. It's been a total liberation for me, I do and try and spread the word when I see posts about not wanting or not being able to leave to house due to diarrhea, of course this blog needs to be caveated with the fact not all increased toilet activity is due to BAM but if you’re in the situation I found myself in, make an appointment with your consultant to discuss BAM. 

 

Here’s a few useful links to BAM 

https://gutscharity.org.uk/advice-and-information/conditions/bile-acid-malabsorption/?gclid=CjwKCAiAyc2BBhAaEiwA44-wW1pRrol0lJeIe0UaMsLXBHTQpqauGUIqifhzsGMalV_xzZhkRGWl8RoCfg8QAvD_BwE

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A Vaccine for Crohns

As vaccines are brought to our attention due to COVID 19 I thought I’d shine a light on the vaccine being developed for Crohns disease right here in the UK 

 

We all know the simple fact that there is no cure for Crohns disease at the present time. I’m sure every person with Crohns has spent many hours searching the internet for a miracle cure, and let’s face it, some of the remedies that sellers are suggesting go from the obscure to the downright bazaar. Tree bark! Hook worms! (Disclaimer, I have myself tried hook worms), which on reflection shows how desperate I was to find the answer. 

 

However, there is potential light at the end of a very dark tunnel for us Crohns suffers, it’s in the shape of a vaccine that’s being developed right here in the UK by one of the most dedicated, knowledgeable and compassionate HCP, His name is Professor Herman Taylor and he has dedicated his life’s work to helping Crohns suffers. 

 

Before we talk about the Vaccine it’s important to understand how Prof Taylor and his team came to even consider developing a vaccine in the first place. 

 

Well, there is no cure for crohn’s disease and no cause is officially recognized however prof Herman Taylors team believe there is compelling evidence pointing to MAP as the cause of Crohns disease.  

 

https://crohnsmapvaccine.com 

 

MAP Facts 

 

MAP is a type of bacteria its rather convoluted name is, microbacterium AVM paratuberculosis or MAP, in short it belongs to a family of bacteria called micro bacteria, which also includes tuberculosis and leprosy.  

 

MAP is proven two cause Jones disease a form of inflammatory bowel disease affecting domestic lie Livestock that is strikingly similar to Crohns disease. 

 

It appears that we are widely exposed to MAP from the food we eat, (Livestock) to the milk we drink.  In fact, milk from infected animals often contains M A P and unfortunately the M a P is not killed off by the pasteurization process.  

 

MAP is also present in the poo of infected animals, MAP has also been detected in our rivers and in one study from Lancaster University their research suggested that MAP is also present in our water system drinking water and its even been detected in shower heads. 

 

MAP is incredibly difficult to detect in people because, get this, you cannot see it under an ordinary microscope, not only that, it’s very difficult to culture and grow. 

 

https://crohnsmapvaccine.com/treatment/map/ 

 

So, Crohns is not technically an autoimmune disease? 

 

It looks like us Crohns suffers have a wonky immune response to MAP, as When healthy people are exposed to MAP, their macrophages gobble up and digest MAP and their T-cells ‘see’ and eradicate any MAP-containing cells. When someone susceptible is exposed to MAP, it is a different story. Their macrophages eat MAP but cannot digest it and MAP remains, happily living inside our bodies. In addition, their T-cells are ‘blind’ to MAP; they cannot eradicate it and MAP is allowed to multiply unchecked, generating vast numbers of organisms inside the gut as well as other tissues (even inside the T-cells themselves). This is the person who develops Crohns Disease. 

 

http://crohnsmapvaccine.com/treatment/map/ 

 

How does MAP actually cause disease? 

 

MAP itself does not directly cause gross inflammation. Instead it initiates a cascade of events with disastrous consequences. The first is to cause dysregulation of the immune system, which then destabilises the gut wall, rendering it leaky. Leakiness of the gut wall allows it to be penetrated by other gut organisms (e.g. bacteria such as E.coli, yeasts and viruses) and irritant food residues. It is these secondary invaders and irritants that cause the massive inflammatory response which creates the Crohns pathology. The second is to damage and inflame the delicate nervous system in the gut wall, which makes the consequences of the immune dysregulation a lot worse. 

 

Immunosuppressant’s can reduce Crohns symptoms by lessening the inflammatory reaction in the gut wall (some may also possess some direct anti-MAP activity). Antibiotics like metronidazole can reduce Crohns symptoms by killing off other bacteria which invade the gut wall. Bland diets can reduce Crohns symptoms by removing some of the irritants which trigger more inflammation, but unless you treat MAP it, you are only treating the mechanism and not the cause of Crohns Disease. That is why we need this therapeutic and preventative modern Vaccine. 

 

http://crohnsmapvaccine.com/treatment/map/ 

 

I always look forward to the latest new on the Crohns MAP Vaccine, and just imagine for a second the positive impacted the vaccine could have on our lives. We are incredibly fortunate to have the world’s leading Crohns and vaccine specialist working together to deliver the vaccine. Unlike the COVID vaccine which has seen unprecedented cooperation and unlimited funds, the Crohns MAP vaccine requires funding at each stage of its development, so please tell your friends, neighbours and fundraisers to be part of the solution to this hideous disease. 

 

How to donate 

 

https://crohnsmapvaccine.com/fundraising/ 

 

 

Crohns and MAP FAQ’s 

 

https://crohnsmapvaccine.com/faq/ 

 

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IBD, mental health disorders and food phobias.

This month’s blog is difficult for me to write down, I guess admitting to an eating disorder is something that I was always going to struggle with, certainly when I began to read back my blog it reminded me of the hole I’ve dug for myself, however, after spending time researching for this month’s blog and the therapy I’m receiving I am now being to understand why eating disorders are prevent in the IBD community.

 

So, what’s the link between IBD and eating disorders?

 

Research, though limited, suggests an overlap between IBD and eating disorders. The few available studies show that IBD may indeed play a role in eating disorder development and illness. This research describes the relationship between the two conditions as reciprocal—they affect and are affected by each other. The presence of IBD can complicate illness and recovery from an eating disorder and vice versa. 

 

The experience of physical discomfort when eating can also heighten anxiety or fear at mealtimes, and the unpredictable nature of IBD can spark a desire to limit intake in an effort to limit IBD symptoms. Doing so may provide an illusory sense of control around food, or a general means to cope with the stress of a debilitating gastrointestinal illness.

My own experience of disordered eating began like most people with Crohns or colitis, when having a flare up of the disease causes one to immediately restrict the food intake, as the pain of eating is too much. This of course leads to severe weight loss, which in turn can lead to other complication; I found the most challenging aspect of my weight loss (I’m 6ft `2 and weighed just 10 stone at my lowest point) were the unintended comments from friends and family,…you’ve hardly touch your dinner, if you keep going on they’ll be nothing left of you. You look really skinny, I’m so jealous! 

Obviously, these comments hurt but I have to remind myself that friends and family have no idea of the reasons behind the dramatic weight loss. Although my eating disorder may have its origins in the many flare-ups over the years, I believe mine started when I began controlling my Crohns by using diet Specifically, the LOFFLEX diet. I’m aware controlling IBD with diet is still a contentious issue for many consultants and patients alike, for me it isn’t a contentious issue at all, if I eat, chicken, white rice, carrots, prawns, rice cakes rice milk and oven chips, my Crohns is under control (confirmed via Ibdoc https://www.alphalabs.co.uk/bi-ibdoc) If I go off my diet. My Calprotectin levels shoot up dramatically and I begin to feel unwell.

So back to my diet, my saviour and my foe, no matter how hard I’ve tried over the last 10 years to introduce new foods into my diet, I’ve failed miserably, which then leads to me being self-critical, and my inner voice screaming: why can’t you just stick to the diet? Why can’t you just try the introductions of new foods, what fool would knowingly eat foods that will cause your Crohns to flare? 

I now realise I have developed a full on eating disorder, I regularly binge on foods at weekends that make me feel unwell,  and honestly I don’t even enjoy the foods I’m binging on,  I often eat secretly in the kitchen and feel like a fool when I get “caught’ in the act, which is not only hard to swallow, (pun intended) but I now understand it’s manifestation in other parts of my life, particularly when I have a shopping trolley full of my foods for the week, chicken, whole sale boxes full of rice cakes and oven chips, I often imagine some random person making derogatory comments on the contents of my shopping trolley, so I’m in and out quick,  that’s a bit mad, isn’t it?

I’m so grateful for the therapy I receive for my eating disorder; the therapy has put my internal voice and conversations into context, and helped my councillor Identify and labels my disorder as ARFID. ARFID stands for: avoidance restrictive food intake disorder and it’s a relatively new eating disorder diagnosis Previously coined “Selective Eating”, it involves limitations and/or restrictions around food, particularly around the intake of certain types of food or certain amounts.

Unlike other eating disorder diagnoses (like Anorexia, Bulimia or Binge Eating Disorder) it doesn’t typically involve distress around body image or a pursuit of thinness. Rather, it is classified by a rejection of certain foods often due to sensitivity in taste, texture, smell, appearance or temperature. Someone suffering with ARFID may struggle with socialising and eating around others, and suffer from serious nutritional deficiencies, weight loss in adults and stunted growth in children.

If you can identify with some of the themes in this blog, don’t beat yourself up! We have enough to deal with managing our IBD physically and mentally daily, remember we didn’t ask for this disease, it’s not our fault IBD makes us feel less than. There is help out there too, I’ll leave this blog with links to various organisations that can help.

https://www.beateatingdisorders.org.uk/support-services/helplines

https://eating-disorders.org.uk/

https://www.swedauk.org/

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Another milestone moment for me and my Crohns!

Hurrah! It’s my 10th Anniversary and according to Google:

 

‘Traditionally, the 10th year of marriage is marked with tin or aluminium. Both materials represent the durability and flexibility needed to sustain a loving union.’

 

And oh my, have we shown durability and flexibility between us. Not me and my wife of course, no I mean, it’s ten years this weekend that my lifelong partner Crohns re- entered my life, with a bucket full of Chinese wings and a blue light ride to that most exotic of places, Wythenshawe hospital A&E 

 

And that flare up exactly ten years ago changed everything!

 

No more cut and shut, chopping out the diseased part of the bowel, and then crack on with your life. By 2010 the medical profession, dealing with an ever rising occurrence of Crohns disease, had worked out it was better to manage the disease with a whole new raft of medications than hack away at the bowel.

 

And how I miss those days of elective surgery, some days, I just want to get a knife and chop the whole thing out myself and other days, it’s familiarity seems like an old friend (that you never really liked). But no, this time round it’s all been about treatments, since September the 28^th 2010, I’ve tried, 6MP, Azathioprine, Infliximab, LDN, triple antibiotic therapy and the most effective of all the treatments for me is a low residue, low fibre diet.

 

It’s still a journey. One of those like when you climb to the top of the mountain, quietly congratulating yourself, then you discover there’s another peak, and another peak and another…………

 

But you know you just got to keep going, this time around, armed with IBDoc, which again has been such a useful tool in lock down, as I haven’t seen my consultant since last February, however, I have seven months of IBDoc data, so I’m comfortable with the wait. And as things are shaping up with the pandemic, it looks like we’re in for the long haul! 

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